Transitions

I stopped writing the way I used to.
when excess thoughts would get bottled up in my head
and manifest themselves in my fingertips

I wonder what changed.
I wonder when this happened.
I feel like I've been sleeping for the past 2 months
and I woke up as someone
I no longer know

so i guess it's a game of creation, now
and I'm supposed to shape myself into the woman I want to be
but I'm not sure how to do that
because I've never been as old
as I am now.